My motherhood struggles

I battle daily with my mind. It's quite unfortunate that I can now see that I need to seek help for my own health as well as my children's.
I'm thinking if I can understand my own mind better I may understand my boy a little  more.
Am I silly for thinking that?
Does that make you (whoever you are) think different off me?
What do you perceive when you read my worries?
Should I be concerned about the consequences of my actions by speaking out loud?
I'm not done but I have a testing in the morning I do need to get my head space.
Goodnight
For now