My motherhood struggles

I battle daily with my mind. It's quite unfortunate that I can now see that I need to seek help for my own health as well as my children's.
I'm thinking if I can understand my own mind better I may understand my boy a little  more.
Am I silly for thinking that?
Does that make you (whoever you are) think different off me?
What do you perceive when you read my worries?
Should I be concerned about the consequences of my actions by speaking out loud?
I'm not done but I have a testing in the morning I do need to get my head space.
Goodnight
For now

Quotes

Emotional is thy mother

Just because I am strong
enough to handle the PAIN,
Doesn't mean I deserve it.

I am really struggling as a mother and wife just now.
Sadly I feel if I don't talk about my feelings that I will bottle them up to the point I explode.
This blog was meant to be about my son and our journey together 😔
With light being at the end of the tunnel so to speak'
Some days like today I feel my super strength has gone and I'm just a silly woman who can't even get the right support for her child!
Yes I am..
To some I know anyway
Oh to be a fly on the wall in our house would open up Pandora's box in some people's deluded minds!
"Parenting?? 'Yeah it's a blast sweetie, my boy tonight was hallucinating!" 👊👊

Stupid stupid people who can't see a mental disability therefore it's not possible!

You just can't argue with stupid though 😔
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Mum worries 🙈

Ok so I know us mums worry over silly things and get uptight ALOT lol
I've just had one of those "my poor boy" days and felt so useless I guess.
He's actually been pretty good still so I know this is is all on me 😭
See the school had their photographers in a few weeks back and to be fair I knew he wouldn't be keen on getting his dome as he hasn't had them the past 4 yrs or so anyway.
This yr however is his last in primary school. Unbeknown to me they had a group photo taken the same times and unfortunately it was his morning off so he didn't get.
I have this urge to cry out to the school..
"Why didn't you tell me?" "Why is my boy not in his last class photo?" "Why did nobody think this might seem unacceptable?"
I realise they probably didn't mean to miss him out. I do get the fact they don't revolve around us.
It just saddens me that he's not part of a photo that will hold memories to his youth.
His absence has already impacted on his friendship with his peers.. or lack off.
He's already the one missing out on the chats at break and the after school meet ups. Does it not occur to anyone that this may have again a detrimental effect on his future friendships?
Am I just being the paranoid mum?!
Probably...
But surely that makes me just a loving mum xxx

Forgot to take his meds 😱😱🙈

Oh my...
So we had an early rise today even though it's a bank holiday.
Had to go food shopping 😓
He wanted to stay at home for the hour on his own and he is more than careful so I said ok. Anyway gives him his meds to take about 9am and he went upstairs with them as his drink was in his room..
It's now 2.30 in the afternoon and he's just came down for food and to show me he forgot to take his meds 😱
Awww man I'm like "you can't bloody take them now you'll be up all night" lol..
I'll leave this here just now and shall provide the results of the day later on haha
Wee tube that he is.
He's in a good mood just now so it's looking to be successful but that can all change 👌🙈